When I was a little girl, I went to a concert at Symphony Hall with my mom and grandma. The concert was memorable in that the conductor introduced a 14 year old boy who would be joining the symphony to play a piano concerto. When he finished (I wish I could remember the boys name), I was amazed at how excellent he played. A spark was kindled inside of me, a desire to play the piano like that.
There are so many talents inside the talent of music. At first, piano lessons went well. My teacher would play everything she wanted me to practice, and I remembered the little tunes and played them all week, then would pass of my assignments the following week. This went on for about 3 months, until she introduced note reading. Brick wall.
Fast forward to the present year 2012. This year, I have a new piano goal to learn jazz piano. I started studying with a great teacher a few months ago and I feel like that same little girl all over again. What got me through the road bumps when I was younger is the love of the adventure, the love of loving what I'm doing.
Julia Cameron states, "Enthusiasm (from the Greek, "filled with God") is an ongoing energy supply tapped into the flow of life itself. Enthusiasm is grounded in play, not work. Far from being a brain-numbed soldier, our artist is actually our child within, our inner playmate. As with all playmates, it is joy, not duty, that makes for a lasting bond."
I formed a lasting bond with the piano as a child by asking for help. Basically what this meant was, I would pray for inspiration alot when I'd sit down to practice. There's a process I go through between the work of it and the play of it. When I hit brick walls in my practicing, (it seems like at least every 5 minutes....) I try to remind myself that "creative work is actually creative play. And at the heart of this play is the mystery of joy." I've received amazing insights through applying this process of asking/receiving ideas or inspiration/practicing/working at it/hitting a brick wall, and then going through the process over and over again.
This Friday I'm going to try out my new found jazz piano skillz at a concert in Brigham City. I'm so excited! and a little scared! But I'm hopeful it will be just fine and I won't die of failure or embarrassment or anything else tragic. I just want to play and sing and be in the moment of sheer jazz joy! I'm so grateful for the opportunity to grow. And I'm so grateful for the joy music brings to me. Thank you for listening too! Your support makes me glow. I am soaked in gratitude!